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Fighting Through Pain

Dearly beloved: May GOD’s peace, mercy, love, joy, and healing grace be ever upon you. Pain, it is the most difficult of all our emotions. It is also the most destructive. If left to fester, it leads to hate, anger and sadness. If we do not control it, it makes us depressed and causes us to lash out. As a convict in a supermax prison, I am living in a house of pain. I myself sometimes suffer from it. It is very easy to fall into despair when you are serving a life sentence for crimes you did not commit. Satan loves to kick us when we are down. He often tries to plant doubt in my head. He tells me there is no use in fighting for my freedom or seeking justice. He tells me that I am worthless and hopeless. He tells me that no matter what I do I will die in here. He tells me that nobody cares about a colored ex-drug dealer and alcoholic. He tells me that I am a failure and. a loser who is washed up. He says I am nothing more than a waste of talent and no one will take pity on me or believe in me. I am not going to lie to you. Even as a man of faith, sometimes I want to give up and believe his dirty lies. There are times when my family is not able to visit me for months. During those times I often break down and cry. I sleep all day unable to get out of bed. A lot of you know exactly what I am talking about. Don’t you? Don’t you just want to give up and die sometimes? You see, we may not be in the same boat, but we are all traveling on a turbulent river called life. We can relate on many levels. You know what I do at my lowest points? I pray and read my bible and sometimes I feel instant joy, but other times it takes me a while to come out of my funk. This situation hurts and at times it feels hopeless.

Because of my disgusting choice to sell drugs I understand that most of society has no mercy for me nor love. I am not that man anymore and even when I was, I would not ever kill another human being. Even in defense of my life, I don’t know that I could. Of course, the argument can be made that the poison I sold was killing people. I have so much remorse for the life I lived and the people I polluted. I imagine that the apostle Paul felt remorse for the death of Steven even though it was not caused by his hand. Yet GOD redeemed him as He is doing with me. Still, l imagine that Paul often struggled with pain. But, he fought through it. He never lost faith in GOD; not even when he was persecuted and unjustly put in prison. Even when he was viciously executed, he believed in GOD and he fought through the pain. I refuse to believe satan’s lies. I know that there are people out there in the world who believe in redemption. I know that my current situation is nothing more than a minor setback which is preparing me for a major comeback. I prayed and GOD told me to reach out for help. He inspired me to get the Justice4Randall facebook page created which my family maintains. Hallelujah! Praise GOD!

This is the first time throughout this entire five-plus years that I have reached out to others for help. I have been so focused on helping others and giving back to the people in need of GOD that I never thought of asking someone to help me. I owe so much for the pain that I caused by selling drugs, I didn’t dare ask for help. But GOD said, “Son, you are a Christian and it is okay to accept help from your brothers and sisters.” I am a part of the body of Christ. We Christians are family and families are supposed to stick together. So, I started the Justice4Randall facebook page in hopes of raising enough money to hire a law firm to fight for me. I have been shafted by two public defenders who were crooked. Because of my color and background, I have been made into a political tool used to frighten people into voting for certain politicians who promise to rid the state of Maine of “dangerous black men”. In fact, the lead prosecutor was promoted after my trial and is now favored to be the next attorney general. The current attorney general is running for governor. They are desperately trying to cover up what they did in my case and several others. When you are up against that kind of power and corruption, you can’t fight it alone. You need GOD and His children on your side. I refuse to die a political prisoner whose back was used as a step ladder for those who thirst and lust for power and fame. This is very painful, but we are gonna fight through this pain together.

I know that some of you out there are facing even worse trials than I right now. Well, I want you to know that you are not alone, not at all. I am here with you. More importantly, GOD is with you if you let Him in. I want you to write me and I promise to pray for you and offer you whatever help I am able to lend. You are a part of my redemption. I want to help you fight through your pain. I included a recent picture of myself at the top of this post. It is not one of my best. I was going through a lot at the time and had been in tears the night before. You can see how heavy and bloodshot my eyes are. My facial hair was black five years ago when this nightmare began and as you can see it is mostly grey now. You are probably wondering why I shared such an unflattering photo. Well, I want you to see my struggle. I want you to understand that you are not the only one suffering. We are in a spiritual battle. Sometimes that takes a toll on us.

If you look at my photo real carefully you can see a twinkle in my eye. That is the light of GOD within me. If you are reading this and you are unsaved, now is the time. Let GOD help you fight through your pain. He loves you and He wants to help you.
Please repeat the following prayer: “Dear Jesus, I know that because of my sin I need Your forgiveness. I believe that You died on the cross for my sins. I believe You rose again so I could live with You. I want to stop living for myself and start living for You. I want Your peace in my life. I want forgiveness for my sins. Please come into my heart and change my life. I want to live with You forever. I want You to be my Lord and Savior. In Jesus’ name. Amen.”
If you said it and you meant it, then welcome to the family. We are now in this together. Please contact us and let us help you on this new path you have chosen.

That picture of me is on one of my low days when satan really attacks me hard. But, truth be told, I have far more good days than bad. You can ask anyone who knows me; I am at peace more often than not. That peace is from GOD. I want you to feel it too. I LOVE all of you and I thank you for your prayers and support.

 

May GOD bless and keep you! May you support others and in turn be supported! May you let GOD help you fight through the pain! Amen!
Love in Christ,
Randall
(A man who is letting GOD help him fight through the pain!)

Praying For Texas

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCwi858rGRPg0lFFVycFvvWADearly Beloved: May GOD’s Love, peace, mercy, and understanding be ever upon you. I regret having to write yet another post about a mass shooting. These senseless acts of violence weigh on our hearts. To my brothers and sisters in Sutherland Springs, Texas, I send my deepest condolences. I am so very sorry for your loss. I know that you know that your loved ones are in the hands of our mighty father. They are at peace and are living in the splendid bliss of our LORD. You will rebuild your church congregation. You will someday heal. Just do your best to give your pain to JESUS. PRAISE HIS NAME! God did not cause this pain, but He will see you through if you let Him. We Love you very much and we are praying earnestly for you Texas. The thought of this happening during a service is incomprehensible to me. I am at a loss for words. I just wanted to send this prayerful message to you and to remind you that our GOD is an awesome GOD. I ask all of our readers from all over the globe to join me in prayer. Not only for Texas but for all victims of violence and all persecuted people everywhere in the world.
LORD: We pray for strength, healing and guidance for our brothers and sisters Sutherland Springs, Texas and all who need it. We pray for understanding and acceptance. We pray for the wisdom to stop as much of the violence in our world as possible. LORD, we pray for peace and Love to triumph over evil. We ask that you pardon our sins and open our hearts. We pray that any church that satan has attacked be rebuilt in your honor and for Your glory. In Jesus name, Father, Amen!

If you are unsaved and hurting we want to help you. Please open your heart and mind to JESUS. It is time to end your pain and start healing.
Repeat the following prayer: “Dear Jesus, I know that because of my sin I need Your forgiveness. I believe that You died on the cross for my sins. I believe You rose again so I could live with You. I want to stop living for myself and start living for You. I want Your peace in my life. I want forgiveness for my sins. Please come into my heart and change my life. I want to live with You forever. I want You to be my Lord and Savior. In Jesus’ name. Amen.”
If you said it and you meant it, then I welcome you to the path of light. Please contact us and let us help you.

To anyone in pain that has thoughts of hurting yourself or others, I implore you to please seek help. Don’t let your anger fester. Whatever you are facing can be worked out. Violence is never the answer. It is never too late to change. If you are in despair and reading this, that is not a coincidence. God is calling you. He wants to help you, but first, you must accept Him.

I LOVE all of you out there. I am praying for you.
May GOD bless and keep you! May you seek and find Him in your time of need! May your heart be healed and free from pain and anger! Amen!
Love in Christ,
Randall
(A man who sends all of his love and prayers to Sutherland Springs, Texas and all who suffer worldwide.)

Massacre In Sin City

https://static.pexels.com/photos/161772/las-vegas-nevada-cities-urban-161772.jpegJohn 3:18-21   “He who believes in Him is not condemned; but he who does not believe is condemned already, because he has not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God. And this is the condemnation, that the light has come into the world, and men loved darkness rather than light, because their deeds were evil. For everyone practicing evil hates the light and does not come to the light, lest his deeds should be exposed. But he who does the truth comes to the light, that his deeds may be clearly seen, that they have been done in God.”

Dearly Beloved:  May Gods grace, peace, mercy and love be ever upon you.  Let me start by giving my heart felt condolences to all of the victims of the Las Vegas massacre.  The man who perpetrated that act was obviously very troubled and no doubt plagued by demons.  Evil is ever present awaiting an opportunity to infect us and turn us against each other.  The further away man drifts from God, the easier we are to manipulate.  Even those of us who are saved must maintain constant vigilance.  We have to stay in our bibles and go to church.  The Word is our shield and our guide.  If we stray from the path of light, then we open ourselves up to sin.  Let me tell you that from experience.  Being in prison is very difficult.  There are no words to accurately describe it.  You have to live it in order to understand it.  I have strayed from the path on more than one occasion and each time I have been met with catastrophe.  This is a very unforgiving environment.  You can be beaten or stabbed in the blink of an eye.  It is very difficult to stay on the path.  I struggle.  We all do.  None of us are immune to evil.  Once infected, it will consume us if we do not enlist the help of our LORD to expel it. (more…)

Letter To A Southern Baptist Church

https://www.pexels.com/photo/vintage-old-start-typewriter-101708/Dear beloved brothers, sisters and valued friends.
Let me start by offering you all a very sincere apology.  It has been too long since I have written.  I am in the middle of my second appeal.  I have been working very hard on proving my innocence and exposing the corruption of our broken justice system.  A very well respected and well known legal scholar has written about my case and the poor job my ex-lawyer did defending me.  It has set the legal world abuzz and could lead to the case being overturned – only by GOD’s mighty grace!  I feel Him working on my behalf.  More importantly than going home, I want to expose the racism and corruption and bring it from darkness to light.  Doing so is my duty as a Christian and an American; for by preventing others from suffering what I and countless others have experienced, l am following my LORD’s command: Love thy neighbor as ye love thyself.  People are getting lynched in the courtrooms of this country.  They are being brutalized by corruption, degraded by hate and hung by injustice.  Our brother Martin Luther King said “An attack on justice anywhere is an attack on justice everywhere.”  Amen!  Too many of us Christians sit idly by and watch what we know is wrong in silence.  And in so doing, we become accomplices to satan and his evil schemes.  It is not only people of color that this is happening to.  Poor white brothers and sisters are being lynched too.  Class-ism has always been one of the many vile faces of racism. (more…)

Murdered By Hate

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CAoqhV48AvgEcclesiastes 6:1  “There is an evil which I have seen under the sun, and it is common among men”

Dearly beloved:
My GOD! MY GOD! MY GOD!  Please, Father, bring comfort to the family and friends of Heather Heyer.  Oh LORD, let her death not be in vain.  LORD, let the hate mongers fail and fall!  AMEN AND AMEN!!!

I send my most sincere and heartfelt condolences to the LOVED ones of Heather Heyer and all those who have suffered loss due to the wickedness of hate.  My beloved, I am angry, hurt and outraged over what is happening in the streets of America.  A brave and beautiful person named Heather Heyer was murdered by a confused, racist coward in Charlottesville, Virgina.  I am proud of Heather for standing up to racism.  I am proud that she was white and yet she stood up for people of color like me.  I am proud of her courage and patriotism.

As I sit here watching events unfold, I am struck by the fact that people are actually fighting to keep statues of American traitors and tyrants.  Why not put up a statue of Tim McVeigh?  He was a white supremacist terrorist traitor who attacked his own country just like the confederates.  It would be equal to the statues of confederates.  This is America and we ought not celebrate tyrants who seek to destroy what we stand for as a nation.  They should not be exalted. (more…)

North Korea Nuclear Threats

https://www.pexels.com/photo/grayscale-photo-of-explosion-on-the-beach-73909/Dearly Beloved:  May GOD’s Grace, Peace, Protection and Salvation be ever upon you.  Folks, we may be headed for a nuclear war. We have all seen the news.  I had hoped and prayed for an end to this madness with North Korea, but it appears that war is inevitable.  Only GOD knows for sure.  As a Christian who has eternal salvation I do not fear for my own life.  I welcome the opportunity to be with my LORD, but I fear for those who are not saved.  I am neither suicidal nor in a rush to die.  I have a purpose and a mission to LOVE and spread salvation on behalf of JESUS CHRIST.  That is my reason for being.  Thus, I must fight at all cost to live.  Like all Christians, I am duty bound to serve the LORD in this way.  Right now, I fear not for myself but for my family members who are not saved and all unsaved people all over the globe.  I want to see all of you in Heaven.  I want all of you to have the assurance that I have in the LORD.  All of you out there in the free world are the reason this site exists.  I am not some “doomsday prophet”.  The LORD has said that we neither know the day or the hour of His return and He meant it.  I know a lot of you are scared right now.  You know who should be the most frightened right now?  The people who have not accepted the LORD as their Savior.

This threat we now face is not just an American threat.  This threat is a world threat.  It affects all of us.  This is the biggest threat our world has faced since World War 2 and the Cuban Missile Crisis in the sixties.  We had to come together as a world then and we must now.  It is sad, but it seems that the threat of world destruction brings us all closer together as global citizens.  Kim Jong-un is the evilest tyrant we have faced since Hitler.  He is a sociopathic dictator who forces his people to worship him as a god.   (more…)

Death Knows No Color

https://www.pexels.com/photo/graveyard-grave-stones-gravestones-graves-7911/Dearly beloved:  May GOD’S grace, peace, love, mercy and protection be ever upon you.  I want to talk to you about an equal opportunity employer – DEATH!  Death knows no color, political association nor gender.  Death kills indiscriminately.  I was very troubled by the news that a young and attractive woman by the name of Justine Damond was gunned down by a police officer in Minnesota.  She was a white woman, but regardless of the color of her skin, her death matters every bit as much as anyone else. The bullets that pierced her flesh did not care whether or not she was white or black.  The country is stunned and for the first time in a long time people are beginning to realize that we are all at the mercy of the police.  Our crooked and broken system of law needs to change.  The chief of police resigned over the incident which is something that I have not seen in the cases of murdered black men.  Death knows no color, but people do.  And that hurts us as a society.  I found it both refreshing and encouraging that people of color spoke out about this tragedy and I pray that more will.  It is only when we are able to truly understand and empathize with one another that we can truly begin to heal as a people.  My country is so divided by hate and misunderstanding.  The vultures who are in power use that division to blind us to the truth.  It is only when we unite in love that we will triumph over hate.  GOD is LOVE and LOVE is GOD!!!  I don’t know what happened in Minnesota.  None of us do.  I pray that people reserve judgement against the officers involved.  Don’t be so quick to point fingers; For in so doing you could condemn an innocent man for an accidental death.  I am praying for officer Mohamed Noor and his family. (more…)

Troubled By Struggle

https://pixabay.com/en/handcuffed-arrest-oppression-racism-1251664/Dearly Beloved:
May God’s peace, love, joy and mercy be ever upon you.
Well, it has been a while since I have written you.  My apologies for that.  I have been troubled by my struggle.  I have just turned in my second appeal.  Since I cannot afford a lawyer, I had to do it myself.  My last lawyer betrayed me.  She purposely left things out of my last appeal to prevent me from bringing them up at my federal appeal.  I attempted to file my own response to the court so that I could preserve the issues, but she went behind my back and did it – thereby taking away any chance I had to preserve those issues.  She was appointed by the State.  My trial lawyer also failed me and purposely sabotaged my case.  It turns out he used to represent one of the victims and he is friends with the prosecutor.  Witnesses were tampered with, evidence is missing and the judge, William Anderson, refused to let a witness, who my co-defendant confessed to, testify.  His testimony would have had a major impact and could have led to me proving my case; yet William Anderson refused to let him speak.  He did, however, allow the State to present a witness who gave six different statements and originally said I had not had any involvement.  But, on the day the trial started, she now claimed she saw me with a gun, two years after her first statement.  The police had arrested her and forced her to testify.  She is a serious heroin user and was going through withdrawal.  The only way she could get out and get a “fix” was to say what the cops wanted her to say on the stand.  Of course, she was provided drugs and cigarettes the morning she testified.  Even with all that, William Anderson deemed her credible.  The witness that would have testified on my behalf is a credible federal witness who has provided viable and truthful information in at least one other case; yet Judge Anderson is clearly biased against me and now he will decide the appeal I just turned in. (more…)

A Letter To The President

https://pixabay.com/en/envelope-letters-leave-shiny-post-392960/Dear Mr. Trump a.k.a. “The Donald”:
May God’s mercy, peace, truth and strength be ingrained on every fiber of your being.  May you seek and find His forgiveness and learn to follow His commandments.  Mr. Trump, I do not hate you nor mean you harm, sir.  I am neither your judge nor your jury.  From the beginning of your presidency, I have prayed for you and gave you the benefit of doubt because you are my president.  I have hoped that you would be a man of integrity and that you would bring justice, strength and prosperity to our great nation and the world.  In the beginning, during your candidacy, I took a hard stance against you.  I thought you to be a hate monger and a liar.  Though you claimed to be my brother in CHRIST, I was hesitant to accept your claim for it appeared to me that you are not in line with Christian values nor our founding principles given and commanded by the LORD our GOD.
Matthew 22:37-40  Jesus said to him, “‘You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your mind.’ This is the first and great commandment.  And the second is like it: ‘You shall love your neighbor as yourself.’   On these two commandments hang all the Law and the Prophets.”
But, I could not judge you for the LORD reminded me of John 8:7 – “He who is without sin among you, let him throw a stone at her first.”
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England: We Love You

Dearly Beloved: May God’s peace, prosperity, joy and love be ever upon you. We would like to send our deepest and sincerest condolences to the people of England and all those who are suffering world wide, especially all the young children who were hurt in Manchester. May God bless you all. How does one make sense of such senseless acts of violence? How do we forgive those who employ such savagery on the innocent? We are tempted to feel hopelessness and fear. Despair and sorrow seem so deep within us that we are like shipwrecked sailors floating in a vast ocean with no land in sight. It is during these times that we must seek God.

I would like to share with you some heartfelt words from Dr. Martin Luther King:
“Having to live under the threat of death every day, sometimes I feel discouraged. Having to take so much abuse and criticism, sometimes from my own people, sometimes I feel discouraged. Having to go to bed so often frustrated with the chilly winds of adversity about to stagger me, sometimes I feel discouraged and feel my work’s in vain.  But then the Holy Spirit revives my soul again.”  [click to read source]   (more…)