Troubled By Struggle Beloved:
May God’s peace, love, joy and mercy be ever upon you.
Well, it has been a while since I have written you.  My apologies for that.  I have been troubled by my struggle.  I have just turned in my second appeal.  Since I cannot afford a lawyer, I had to do it myself.  My last lawyer betrayed me.  She purposely left things out of my last appeal to prevent me from bringing them up at my federal appeal.  I attempted to file my own response to the court so that I could preserve the issues, but she went behind my back and did it – thereby taking away any chance I had to preserve those issues.  She was appointed by the State.  My trial lawyer also failed me and purposely sabotaged my case.  It turns out he used to represent one of the victims and he is friends with the prosecutor.  Witnesses were tampered with, evidence is missing and the judge, William Anderson, refused to let a witness, who my co-defendant confessed to, testify.  His testimony would have had a major impact and could have led to me proving my case; yet William Anderson refused to let him speak.  He did, however, allow the State to present a witness who gave six different statements and originally said I had not had any involvement.  But, on the day the trial started, she now claimed she saw me with a gun, two years after her first statement.  The police had arrested her and forced her to testify.  She is a serious heroin user and was going through withdrawal.  The only way she could get out and get a “fix” was to say what the cops wanted her to say on the stand.  Of course, she was provided drugs and cigarettes the morning she testified.  Even with all that, William Anderson deemed her credible.  The witness that would have testified on my behalf is a credible federal witness who has provided viable and truthful information in at least one other case; yet Judge Anderson is clearly biased against me and now he will decide the appeal I just turned in.

So, yes, I am troubled by struggle.  But, you know what?  I still take solace in the LORD.  I still find peace in His love.  I still find ways to smile, knowing no matter what the devil does or who he uses against me, I am going to Heaven.  He has stolen my freedom, but not my liberty.  He has chained my body, but not my mind.  He has destroyed my earthly life, but not my eternal soul.  For, I belong to JESUS CHRIST!  HALLELUJAH!  PRAISE HIS NAME!  NO ONE can take me from the LORD’s mighty hand!  NOT SATAN NOR HIS MINIONS in the corrupt justice system!  NO SIR!  Yea, though I struggle, I remain strong; For the LORD is with me.  Thy rod and Thy staff comfort me.  THANK YOU, JESUS!  AMEN!

My beloved, I am proof that with GOD you can weather any storm.  Yet, it would be a lie if I told you that this struggle isn’t hard.  I currently live in a concrete coffin surrounded by villains, sharks and racist zoo keepers who are more corrupt than the men they hold captive.  Yeah, this is very hard.  Most struggles are.  WE, who believe and are the followers of CHRIST THE KING, WE know that there is light at the end of the tunnel.  There is light in the darkness of life.  WE can always find strength in the fact that our GOD is an all-powerful GOD. WE know that He loves us beyond measure.  WE know that though we may suffer, we will one day be in Heaven.  Don’t you want that assurance too?  If you are struggling and feel hopeless, I am here to tell you that you don’t have to feel that way.  I am struggling, but I am not hopeless.  My faith sustains me and fills me with hope.  If you are not saved, you need to join me on the path of light.
Repeat this prayer:  “Dear Jesus, I know that because of my sin I need Your forgiveness.  I believe that You died on the cross for my sins.  I believe You rose again so I could live with You.  I want to stop living for myself and start living for You.  I want Your peace in my life. I want forgiveness for my sins.  Please come into my heart and change my life.  I want to live with You forever.  I want You to be my Lord and Savior.  In Jesus’ name.  Amen.”
I truly hope you will join us on the path of light.  If you said that prayer and you meant it, then you are my brother or sister in CHRIST and I welcome you.  Please contact us.  We want to help you.  My beloved, I want to thank you so much for the love and prayers you send my way.  I want to thank you for following this site and reading these GOD-inspired words.  I love you so much.  You are proof that life is still worth living and that GOD has a use and a purpose for me.  Thank you all!!!  Pray for me as I pray for you.

May God bless and keep you!  May you seek and find Him!  May you always find hope even when you are troubled by struggle!  Amen!
Love in Christ,
(A man who has faith and hope even in the worst of times)